Hate to live.....plz help me?

YOU ARE NOT ALONE. i too am very shy sometimes in public and i fantasize about having girls cry over me and people wanting my autograph but i know you dont want a comparision between me and you. ok, when you dont have anyone else to talk to TALK TO YOURSELF. this may seem weird but it works. you shouldnt procrastinate because people may think you are lazy which is not a good look especially if you care what people think about you. people will criticize you on some things but not ALL the things. you dont have to worry about much.take the meds. chill out, relax, youll be fine.if you hate being blamed then help out moree than you think you should. or dont help out as much as others expect you to. whichever way it goes, if something really goes wrong, it wont be your fault. if talking to your friend mellows you out then DO THAT. if you think negativley, talk to them again. and tell them about it. your mother probably doesnt mean what she says.. if she does.. there is nothing you can realy do about that. but dont take that into a conclusion of suicide. your only 21, you would be missing things that can be only too good to be true in your near future that you would not want to miss trust me.....