I think Im having the worst time of my life? wasting my life away?

If you have nice parents then try talking to them about it and maybe they'll be more sensitive to your situation and help you reach your goals of becoming the hard worker you once were. If not then just be forgiving with yourself, don't stress too much about it or you'll be too upset to enjoy playing or studying! There are always ups and downs in life and sometimes for apparently no reason, your body's chemicals can play tricks with your moods. So the best thing you can do is find some support and get back on track! The best way for me to overcome procrastination is to just do the first step, like open the book, or begin reading or writing. In my case the hardest part is getting started, once I take a step into the project then I get caught up with it pretty easy! Try that and see how it works for you, good luck and take care!